There are so many good anniversaries I want to remember, for both myself and Mark and for our friends. Wedding anniversaries (June 21, 2003), the anniversary of our first date (May 25, 2001),the anniversary of when Mark proposed (April 21, 2002). Twice we found out on Mark's birthday (October 18) that we were expecting. We try to celebrate even our dogs' birthdays.
There are, it seems, even more sad anniversaries that we remember every year. Today was the anniversary of two of my friends losing their children. Huge hugs to Amanda and Missy. Probably one of the hardest memories of all. We lost Daniel Lawrence on January 6, 2006. And Sweetpea on August 11, 2006. And baby Angel was lost in between cancer diagnosis and first day surgery.
These anniversaries aren't meant as celebrations, but as memories. Our babies will never be forgotten. As much as people (who I try to convince myself year after year only mean well) try to NOT bring up our losses, try to help us find a way to move on, it's not going to happen. At least not for me. And I don't want to ever forget. And I don't ever want to be alone in the anniversaries. Our babies had a father as well, and even though I was the one going through the physical part of the losses, Mark was and is just as important in this picture. It hurts me deeply when Mark isn't mentioned as part of the equation.
Do I have children? Yes. I have three biological children who couldn't stay here with us. I have many foster children who I think about, and love, to this day....every day. I am a Mom. Mark is a Dad. It's a hard question to answer, when people inevitably ask. "Do you have kids?" My answer, if they look like they give a shit, is always "Yes. We have three children"
Happy Anniversary, today, to twin baby boys Gavin James and Brogan Ryker. And to their Mom and Dad, Amanda and Tanner, and their sister Olivia. And Happy Anniversary to baby Riley as well as Riley's Mom and Dad, Missy and Quentin. May your babies always be remembered. ((((hugs))))
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Love to Riley.....
ReplyDeleteAwww love too you all today (HUGS)
ReplyDeleteAwww, my prayers are with you, I cannot possibly imagine how hard that would be, but it makes me so sad to think of your losses. You ARE a mother absolutely!
ReplyDeleteMany hugs to Missy & Amanda. Sorry that I'm a day late.
ReplyDeleteYou are right, you are both parents, just as my hubs and I are. Just because our babies are carried in our hearts instead of our arms, does not change the fact they they lived, and made u parent.
(((hugs)))