I'm no expert

Well, I kind of am, by default.

Anyway, I  was saying,I'm no expert, but it would appear that I will be. at the very least, going to have a ct scan done later today.  And if memory serves, I'll be admitted to the hospital for IV antibiotics and perhaps the draining of what I can only fathom is another abscess.  This feels the same as the birthday before last.  Same pain progression.  Now only on one side.

I am getting so unbelievably sick of living like this.

QOD: If this keeps happening, me having to go to the hospital, how can I effectively parent? Sometimes as badly as I want a child, I wonder if it's the smartest move.