Vermont

As I sit here in Wisconsin munching on some Vermont sharp cheddar, I once again start missing Vermont.

It's been 9 years since we moved from there and we haven't been back.  Not for lack of trying, that's for sure.  We tried to make it back for my 25th high school reunion in 2011.  Unfortunately, I was recovering from cancer and chemo and the surgery to remove my bladder and uterus.  And then I ended up back in the hospital with septic shock and a kidney infection.

To be honest, although I miss Vermont a LOT (and the people in Vermont especially), I'm a bit scared to go back, even for a visit.  To leave the people who performed my surgery and know what an Indiana Pouch IS....scary.  To leave all my doctors...very frightening.

In the back of my mind, I always thought that Mark and I would retire back to Vermont someday.  I know, right?  Crazy, when most normal humans try to head toward warmer weather.  We can't afford to live there right now.  We could when Mark worked at IBM but not now.  We could never own a home again, could never afford it.  I'm not sure how anyone affords to live there anymore.

But still, maybe a visit.  Maybe once we're settled and perhaps have adopted a child.  I always wanted to raise my children in VT.  I grew up in VT and think it's a great place to have a childhood.  But I also know that I need to be within a QUICK trip to a knowledgeable hospital, whether living there or visiting.  So, where would that put us?